Finally to the point where I am sick of being single.. Sick of feeling like I am only around certain people because it is convenient and sick of feeling like people just put up with me now… I think I need to work on me now… I haven’t done it in far too long… My life hasn’t been about taking care of me, my health or future for a VERY long time.. I want a change.. I want new people in my life.. Intelligent people who actually get how I feel and who know that I come first sometimes.. I know some (very few) know this but most don’t. I feel as though I work more towards pleasing others rather than pleasing myself lately… Time for change it will be a hard change because I am so used to my life the way it is now.. But I want the be the Alysha who loved change and that didn’t dread it that Loved to meet new people and didn’t keep to herself ALL the time. The Alysha that was a fun loving person and knew who she was not this shell of a person who can’t figure out who the hell she is anymore. I want to be me again..
I was just talking to a very good friend today and I have decided I need a lifestyle change. I’m ready to start losing weight by time the summer hits I want to be able to wear a bathing suit comfortably! I am going to start writing schedules and actually sticking to them! I may not have a “workout buddy” yet BUT I am going to start doing something for me! I want to be able to be happy with every aspect of my life! I’m actually excited to start it because I really do want to become more active in my life.